Friday, June 26, 2015

The Definitive Thank You!

Sometimes in life, you must take a step back, refocus, and get your mentality back.  This was something I needed, and had to do.  For the past six months, I have struggled with many emotions, and life in general, as I saw many things I once lived for, change in front of my eyes. But with that being said, I never looked at this as failure, although I did at times, have much self-doubt pour over me, it never brought me to the point of feeling defeated. I credit this to my friends, my father and myself.  Through out these tough times, I have never in my life seen the support and kindness from others, when I was at my lowest.  Although I did see some vanish and do everything but what they once said they would, as for being a friend.  I never looked at that part as an issue, but more of an eye opener. It opened my eyes, to the true care of some of the few people in my life, that once were a distant memory, some new, and some most of all were always there.

I took a step back in life yes, I removed myself from social media, yes, I didn't communicate as much to many of those vanished people, yes, but I stayed true to those that showed love.  Most importantly I stayed true to myself during such times, when everything seemed to go the other direction.  This is the true victory, on this day, on a day when I was shown why I always strive, why I always stay confident, why I express myself the way I do, love and work as hard as I always have.  Dedication is the word I'm looking for, dedication to myself and those that are dedicated in such ways as well.  

Although I celebrate a victory today per say, this is not about me, as this is for the ones that have been by my side,  that have motivated me, talked to me when no one else would, kept me on their minds when I could have sworn, people were turning mindless.  These individuals helped me reestablish the once memory of great friends, and have stood the test of these emotional times with me.  I am forever grateful for such people, such friends, that I can say have seen me through the roughest times.  They have made this day possible for me, always having me looking forward, reminding me that this day would come, kept me humble, and patient through it all, so I thank you for that, with my all!

The countless nights, I sat up thinking and needing to talk, the times I wanted to be alone, cry, and laugh, just ride around and get out of the house, or just have some company, these few people made me smile.  On a individual level, it has been a lonely year, for many reasons, but on the other hand, I have gained some great friendships along the way.  I'm proud to look back on this time, and say, I don't look at it as such a bad thing anymore, that I can smile because of you all. 

No matter what, I understand that my life has changed, but this isn't the first time, and surely won't be the last.  So much time to self reflect and understand my life, from an angle I never had the chance to look from, which showed me so much.  The most important take away from it all, are two things. 



  • Life has a unique way of showing you, where you need to go, what you need to do, and who you really are.

  • Sometimes we must lose ourselves, before we can find anything.



I must thank a few people:

Dad: You have spent a lifetime, being here for me, I will spend the rest of my life, loving you and thanking you for just that.  The patience you have shown me, motivating me, always making sure I was ok, during everything I have expressed to you, woke me up daily, and allowed me to sleep peacefully, even minutes between that weren't so happy. We have spent so much quality time together since I've been home, and it has really opened a new chapter in our lives, thank you for just being so opened armed no matter what I choose to do, the father role you take on, is and always will be the same, for that I love you, and appreciate you every moment we share. 

Cecilia: Where can I begin, I have known you since you were 9 years old. Through out the past few years, you have always been someone I could talk to, about anything.  Who would have known that I would be in the position I was in.  As a friend, you are the epitome of just that and more, family, someone I can cry in front of, laugh with, and most of all, always feel accepted.  As I step into whatever chapter ahead of me, always know, I am always here for you, for anything, you can count on me, just like I always counted on you.   Thank you for being patient, with my talks, and understanding where I was coming from.  Thank you for checking up on me, as for I can remember there was not a day you did not check up on me for about 3 years now lol.  For all your time, has been appreciated, and definitely noticed for a lifetime to come. My friend, I love you, and always wish nothing but the best for you.

Bibbins: Bro, I know you're not to be reading thank you's and all, with your hard heart haha, but I appreciate all you have done over the past years we have communicated.  Through this patch of time, we have brought our business together and still made moves, you motivated me, to keep my part of the label alive, and you kept me busy when I had no work to do.  The late night advice, and talks over lunch, unforgettable, and even if you already know, helped me and I can say brought our bond, and business relationship even tighter. So to you thank you brother, and to our company, may it prosper, and do everything we always dreamed and continue dreaming of accomplishing with it. AME!

Chris, Debra, Amanda, my god children: thank you for everything, the times we shared cooking out, hanging out laughing and just having a good time, really helped me cope with a lot of the things I was going through, you all have no idea.  When all was gone, you all were there.  I appreciate that, and I hope I have done the same for you, and will continue doing as much as I can going forward.  Love you all always.

Matthew: For everything it's worth, our talks have been some of the most heartfelt I have had in some time with you over this period.  You almost had me tripping for a minute though, you know what I'm talking about.  But we already discussed that one.  Bro, you have gone out your way for me, always, for years now.  I appreciate our friendship, rare to find, love you man. Thanks for guiding me, as you always have. 

Diandra: My friend, we got reconnected on the fly, but it was so needed, as we were both going through hard times.  This reconnected friendship has been one, of importance for the both of us.  We have helped each other so much with our issues, and we both are on the right path for now.  If anything, I know I can always reach out to you and ask for advice, thank you for being one of the few that was concerned for me daily, and always cheering for me. I have definitely gained a life long friend! Much love!

Randy:  Man!!!! I just thanked you a few weeks ago, but you have always had my back through all this.  Thank you for trying daily to reach out, and most importantly all the things you did to try to land me on the right path.  You are all the way in Atlanta, and some of the work you did for me, was felt right at home. I thank you for being a true friend for over 7 years now, and showing how friends really should be.  Love you bro! I owe you!

Nikki: As times have shifted so have many things about life. But that doesn't take anything away from the friendship and love you showed me over the years.  Thank you for being a ear, and voice for me through everything.  As when I look back, their weren't many days I could have gotten through without you there. I hope all is well with you, I'm proud of you always.

Austin: Cuzzo, I don't have to say anything, other than I know you will always be here for me, as you damn sure know I'm here for you always as well. Love you family!

Brittany: One of the few that checks on me daily, I thank you with everything I have.  I appreciate the times I shared with you and your family over the times, I had fun, we had fun, that was special. Funny how things can sometimes bring us closer although we have been friends for over 10 years now lol. Love you hun! Thanks for always being there to talk to!

Tarver:My brother that has seen me through it all, thank you once again for being there. I look forward to what is ahead for the both of us, I will see you soon enough. Much love family.!

Megan: always someone I can count on to hear me out, and the same goes to you,  Thanks for all the wise words, the motivation you provided me, and most of all a friendship that has represented what a true friendship is. I always wish the best for you and logan. Love ya!

Casey: I can never count you out, as you have always had my back. Simple yes, but a friendship of a lifetime! Thanks for all the advice! Love ya! As I am always thinking of you and yours!

Josh:  The trip to Miami, was the first time i had quality time to spend with my life long brother.  I love you to death, and I appreciate you always being there even though you are miles away, I always feel at home when we talk no matter the distance. I love you brother!

If and when someone calls me out for leaving them off the list, remember, I have not forgotten about you, although some should ask, have you forgotten about anyone?  I love you all as well..

Bitterness has no place in my life.  As I remain humble, and remember all people for what they were worth. 


I'll end with this

I've learned that who doesn't look for you, doesn't miss you, doesn't care for you....
That destiny determines who enters your life, but you decide who stays...
That truth hurts only once, and a lie every time you remember one...
Three things in life that will leave you and never return,
WORDS, TIME, and OPPORTUNITIES.
Therefore, value whoever values you, and never treat those as a priority, that treat you as an option.


Thank you!


MK  15'








Sunday, June 21, 2015

To The Most Deserving

I can say so much about you,
Think of memories, 
That gave me life,
Opportunities to smile,
Chances to learn, and grow,
Freedom, that made me who I am.

Thanks to you for the memories,
of a love that has been life long,
naturally pure every step of the way,
the way everyone should love,
care and heart that I've never found,
in anyone else, through the path,
of the life we've shared, together.

Time, well I'm sure in your eyes,
It's gone quicker than I can ever imagine,
You've always been there,
Preparing me, guiding me,
ever so slightly, showing me,
what means most in the life,
you have come to know, and understand,
for this at it's core,
Is one of the hardest things,
To genuinely find in anyone, in my world.

Father, Dad, Pops, Mike,
are the names you go by,
there is no one else more grateful,
Appreciative, and honored,
to have a man of your character,
to call upon, with such well deserved,
life titles, to describe who you are,
What you stand for, who you mean most to,
the father of my thoughts,
the one I think about when I walk every path,
the man that has been through it all,
not only for me, but with me,
for that you're forever loved, by me,
Your son.

Through out my days, 
I've seen you transpire into, 
My best friend, 
a relationship that if simply explained,
would be only simply understood by most,
but be sure, the dedication,
You have shown me in everything you do,
has built me to be who I am,
When I stand in front of you,
it is the sole result, of just that,
Our family, our lives, built by a father with,
love, and great instincts, 
that over time, I've been grateful,
To understand, as the purest love of all.

Everyday I'm reminded of you,
No matter the path, 
no matter the choice,
but what stands out the most,
Everyday, I always have my father,
I'm never left knowing nothing about you,
always knowing I can reach you,
As you are always right there with me,
making sure I'm loved, and smiling.

On a day, they call your day,
I want you to know,
that everyday at it's core,
Is your day, to me, your son,
I always want you to feel,
That everything you have shown me,
I strive to show you as well,
So that along the way,
You always will understand,
The father you are,
The man you are,
The quiet heroics, 
that I appreciate, that I admire,
as I will always be here for you, 
when you need,
The love, the son, you gave your all to,

As I am, forever & always,
Your son, 
to the most deserving,



Happy Father's Day Pops!



MK. 15'