The Beginning and Ending of An Expected Chapter...

To begin..


It has been one thing to talk about it, another to actually live it.  Only one person can explain feelings... Yourself, Myself. This is what we do best. What I do best.


I want to give you insight into one of the best chapters in my life. That has recently come to an end, and most importantly has once again begun.


Since I can remember, I have always wondered, thought of things in my own ways, along side having my ears and eyes open, to not only see things in my life, but to listen, and observe what I can one day experience, change, and tell.  I was always propelled forward in life, by only a few people, most importantly my Father, which has granted me the opportunity to see life, in ways many have not.  I have never struggled, in the field of love, or having a roof over my head to live, eat, and enjoy life. This is all thanks to him.  For he has allowed me to see life, and create my own Moral's, theorie's, experience's, and most of all the way I love.


It was at a young age that I started to admire my education.  Although I must say, there were many times, that my own discipline was not enough to stay on track. I needed to be pushed from all sides of the spectrum. But there was much missing. 


There was something never there.  Something that most people take for granted, a piece of life that most people never have to worry about.  "FAMILY" ... This is not to take away from my father, but most importantly to shine light on every person that was supposed to care, that never did.  This certain notion of emotional feeling I had towards this missing love, kickstarted a feeling in me that would forever change my life, and make me the person I believe, is who I am most happiest to be.


To explain in the fewest words...


To not have the people that are supposed to love you.. Not love you, Not call on you, Not show you their keys to life, or grant you the same opportunity they would have wanted if they were in your shoes..... "Goes to show you that in life, nothing is supposed to love you"..


As I sit here, looking back at the past 22 years of life...


I have never found true love in someone that is supposed to love you, matter of fact, those are the people you should avoid. As most of the time, they have to love you, because of what society tells them to do. That is my eyes is not true love, that is not what I want, to be loving me. I want someone... I want someone that love, because they would love too.


So I end with this..


As this chapter of life started, I saw many roads to take, I Heard, Witnessed, and Listened to much of what everyone told me, offerred me, and took from me along the way.


As I walked across that stage Thursday, to receive my degree of a higher education.


It was just a friendly reminder...


That the love you have for yourself, carries you much further than any love you will ever receive from someone else.


That the love from the people that are not supposed to love you, is the love that you think about during moments that change your life.


That it is not who loves you, It is who you love. 


And for that..


I Love You All!!


To~ My family and friends. 




-Mak Dec. 11'